Just when you think things are going well, you get hit in the face with a bible, either figuratively or literally.  When you think you're a pretty decent person, reality wakes you up to the fact that you are, in actuality, a total piece of crap. We are all born inherently ignorant, but as we grow, we "choose" to stay ignorant. Living the illusion of being a good person is extremely tiring, even if you don't realize you're doing it. It seems fake, pretentious, and hypocritical to "act" like something you know you're not. And sometimes when you really start to believe in your own fallacy, the cold truth hurts that much more. If I'm nothing else, I am brilliantly inept. I have showed a masterful deception of character, and have been doing it so long now that I really was beginning to fall for it myself. The mirror can be the ugliest thing in the world sometimes if you truly "see" what is pitifully gazing back at you. All you can do is attempt to change that image that disgusts you the most, and force the reality you know that "can" be real...