Christmas Eve

On this weird, warm Christmas eve, I pause for reflection...
The year has been full of self-inflicted chaos and despair...
Trouble has found me, and abused me more than I care...
I have been in purgatory awaiting hell...
I have hacked away at my legs until I finally fell...
I have swam in regret until my fingers pruned...
I have cried in the face of a waning moon...
My time clicks past until next Christmas eve...
By then I will surely, unequivocally believe....