Where do I go now? I'm on vacation for two more weeks, and I am idle. That's never a good thing with me. I'm used to noise and kids running around. This silence is killing me. Perhaps I will get used to it. I guess I could use this free time to write some profound work. All I know is I'm not going to let this destroy me this time. The last time this happened, I almost died. You can't make someone love you. You can't repair something that doesn't want to be repaired. You can't force someone to be with you. You have to move on, and start over. Last time, I held on and tortured myself for over a year. This time I must put it behind me, and not dwell on things. Hopefully, this new year will give me some peace. I think being happy would be a nice change for me too....