Monday

I found out yesterday I had to have a hemicolectomy. As Monday draws closer, reality about this surgery is setting in and it's scaring the hell out me. I know it's not open-heart surgery or anything, but it's still a very serious thing. I've never had a surgical procedure that required a week-stay in the hospital. I'm worried about how long it's going to take to recover from all of this. I'm worried about missing this much work. I'm worried about infection setting in. I could get sepsis, or develop pneumonia. I'm worried about who is going to let my dog out. What if a freak surgical mishap leaves my kids fatherless? All of these things are valid concerns. I just want to cancel it and take my chances....