Stress

We are not equipped to deal with tragedy. When the unthinkable happens, our worlds are turned upside down. People deal with things in all sorts of ways. I think there is a mechanism within us that clicks on when something horrible happens, putting us in autopilot mode. When you normally think of stress, it's usually about things like paying the water bill, or passing an exam. This is a whole other level of stress that I wasn't prepared for.  Life and death situations make you aware of just how fragile and finite life really is... This anxiety is making me physically ill. It's almost like standing on the edge of a cliff when you are petrified of heights... It's like being on the diving board when you can't swim... My emotions are running at an all-time high... It makes it hard to just keep myself together, but what other choice do I have?