I am compelled to take an unknown action with extreme urgency this morning. It's like feeling that you are on a deadline, but you have no idea why. Anxiety in general, could explain much of it, but it seems more than that today, as I wake up late and race to work in the rain. Echoes of the redundant arguments from last night are still fresh in my mind. I patiently await my paycheck, which is already spent. The desire to get "ahead" in a faint economy is strong, yet the money still slips through my fingers like water. Although I am better than I used to be, the safety nets that once protected me are long gone, and I am essentially on my own. Perhaps this strange stress I'm feeling is the coldness of an autonomous reality I'd rather not face today; or maybe it's just me creating fictional fears for no real reason. Either way, today is a weird day...