The cold, sobering wind whips around me this morning, along with a heavy feeling of dread. A flood of emotions pours over me unexpectedly, and my mind wonders into a thousand directions. A deep sense of depression falls upon me as I realize that things can't go on this way. As much as I dislike change, change is something that must happen in order for me to survive. I can no longer cast the blame on others, I have to accept responsibility for my own rotten actions. I have to press on without my vices, and find something new to hang on to...