How do I feel today?... I'm numb...I'm pissed off, hurt, confused, alone, and missing a piece of my life. To actually watch the life leave someone you love, is something that you will never forget. We all watched the monitor slowly countdown the inevitable. I think that was the cruelest thing of all. I'm trying to stumble through the day. We are supposed to celebrate his life, and not dwell on his death, but that is more difficult than I ever thought it would be. Those images re-play in my mind, and I am trying desperately to forget them, and think of all the happiness and good times we shared. Maybe after the shock wears off, I can focus more on the positives; but right now, I am mourning my father...