I've been in this negative state of mind for so long, I just assumed that was the way I was. It never really occurred to me that my life simply followed whatever I was focused on. Thinking happy thoughts to climb out of a depressed mood, seemed too easy and even cliche. When your focus is misery, your life will follow suit. The opposite is also true. When your focus is positive, your life will then go in that direction. Your subconscious doesn't care which way you go. You are determining your own direction with your thoughts anyway. It's totally our choice which way we go...