Where did you go?

Remember when I sat next to you on the school bus and we traded stories of innocence and youthful indifference? I recall asking you to my first grade school dance. I think back to the time we were caught by our band director in the back of the bus making out, and being so scared, we almost wet ourselves. I recall many years later, meeting you at a small store. I looked over my sunglasses, and you looked at me in a very sexy and endearing way.
I recall living in bliss for such a long time, and struggling in the hospital with the birth of our son. I recall things becoming dull and void in the following years, and ultimately we parted ways. After that I recall meeting you at work, and falling in love all over again. We had some extremely wild, and passionate times during those four years. After that, I met you again in various forms and unique situations. Things were good, and things were bad.
During the next few years, I met you in various places, and we had moments of happiness as well as chaos. We laughed and had glorious times together. We also almost killed each other at times too. Ahhh, the "good times". You held my hand through the darkness, and I helped lift you from the abyss on occasion as well. For the next few years, I didn’t see you again. I was alone with my thoughts and solitude.
Finally, after I abandoned all hope of finding you again, you showed back up out of the blue. I looked into your eyes to see that you were the same person, yet with different attributes and different passions and loves. I recall our beautiful October wedding, which was a perfect day (weather-wise). I recall living in a nice house and taking very good care of you through your difficult pregnancy with our daughter.
After a few years of bliss and the inevitable tribulations which occurred through the past three years; we were once again blessed with another baby girl. My life seemed complete at that point. I never really understood the profound sadness which I felt during these otherwise wonderful times, but I always knew that there was a dangerous undercurrent that could devastate things if left alone. I traded addictions and self-medications throughout the years to no avail.
Suddenly, I found myself alone again, in the midst of self-induced solitude I had been so desperately trying to rid myself of. You have now found another; as have all the rest. I hope he is kind to my children, and gives you the things I was unable or unwilling to give you. I hope his eyes touch you like mine used to touch you. I hope you can live in the bliss you seek. And perhaps, just perhaps, I will meet you again in an unsuspecting locale. Maybe at a store or through an unsuspecting friend. I know you will have a different face and a different name, but I long to see you. Even once more.